tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7591080995100783042024-03-12T22:48:48.601-07:00In Communication with InspirationCarrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-63303717159822546972015-06-29T21:53:00.000-07:002015-06-29T21:55:57.704-07:00Leaning Towards The Sun<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Your smile warms me<br />
Your touch feels welcome and came in greater frequency<br />
An intimacy I ask for in my dreams<br />
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I see you dancing with another<br />
your body moving, a little show off<br />
You deserve my stare<br />
You accept the dance from her and not me and I am glad<br />
because with her it means nothing, and with me something<br />
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There goes the mind in speculation<br />
There is only one thing to notice, the circling of the wagon without the journey<br />
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And then your ex confesses to me, she is still attracted to you<br />
I remain silent.<br />
I don't peep in; me too, because it is hurtful and unnecessary -<br />
to reveal<br />
that we have danced around each other off the dance floor<br />
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Unless I step into grace, I cannot go into impossible places<br />
A man's love is nothing to trivialize<br />
I found myself falling into your orbit<br />
my body reacting as it awakened.<br />
But it's only just started.<br />
My heart wasn't engaged.<br />
Little flirts like soft petals falling.<br />
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Can you step into what has started or are you a starter, blowing kisses in the wind?<br />
The gesture floats through the air but never really lands.<br />
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There is distance between us.<br />
Countries and obligations and years.<br />
I let the attention be mutual, but in back of my head, there are reasons to be careful.<br />
I would be truly surprised if you wanted to continue, because the signal was done in morse code.<br />
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I would walk toward you with tender caution, anticipation, delight.<br />
I am the holder of impossible spaces and romantic heroes.<br />
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My body tells me the truth my mind harnesses the desire that my heart gets unleashed and wild.<br />
You pierced me like a sciatic nerve which requires rest and patience.<br />
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There is nothing wrong with some attention,<br />
but,<br />
I am a thirsty Flower, leaning towards the sun.<br />
<br />Carrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-36737395240884864522014-06-06T11:10:00.001-07:002014-06-06T11:10:17.984-07:00Procrastination is a Gift
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<span lang="EN-CA">Procrastination is a gift. It is a gift
that is like a neon road sign direct from Las Vegas baby. You are avoiding
something to be done, you are late, you are too busy, and it’s all about the
‘not doing’. The road sign is telling you that something is not right. Why else
would you do everything possible to not be in the flow, be stressed or unhappy.
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<span lang="EN-CA">What is the flow?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For me, it’s that feeling you have when it’s
all working out; the lights in the street agree to be green as soon as you pass
them, you arrive at the dentist and they are waiting for you, your taxes are
done, and it didn’t feel like a big deal, you even got your snow tires off
before it hit 30 degrees. I mean, you are in the flow, and things feel right.
You aren’t rushing or late, you just show up, you arrive not hassled and
apologetic. You haven’t forgotten anything vital to your next meeting. It’s a
state we all aspire to, reach at times, but more likely the slippery slope of
procrastination greats you ever so often, or for some, really often. This is
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<span lang="EN-CA">How do I get that flow?
More importantly, how do I manage these blocks and patterns that I
see in myself? How do I manage the thoughts that make me feel like if I
don’t have a handle on my own procrastination, perhaps I'm not a good enough
coach? I think that the answer is the same for both me and my clients.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-CA">But first, I’d like to point out that many
of us coaches are entrepreneurs, and creativity is an essential part of the character
and core skill set needed as entrepreneurs. But the same holds true for those
that are employed as coaches. We all use our creative energy as coaches because
essentially, the co-creative process of coaching requires that we use imagery,
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<span lang="EN-CA">Creative people experience creative blocks;
generously lumped into the ‘procrastination bucket’. Steven Pressfield in The
War of Art calls it resistance. I am a card-carrying member of my very own
procrastination brigade specializing in resistance. Being coached has shown me
how very hard it is to maintain my ‘sweet spot’ of flow, and the humbling
realization of how hard my clients work at getting out of their own way. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-CA">So the answer to procrastination is also a
little reminder for my self and my clients. The first step is to deal. Look
it straight in the face, see it for what it is, even if it’s not a shining
example of my best moment. Then step back and realize I'm not alone in
this. It’s a small comfort I know, but at least with practice, I'll have more
compassion for myself and others. The point is to not spiral into the negative slippery-slope of
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accept it, realizing that trying to be an ideal or ‘perfect’ version of 'me'
is highly unrealistic. The reality; it’s attainable some of the time, and with
practice I can get better, but expecting myself to always keep it together
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I'm avoiding certain tasks. I realized it was two factors; one
was my sense of self worth was allowing my fear to gum up my flow. I really think
this is a hidden problem of confidence, because courage is confidence in
action. Second, (and this is a big one) my commitment to myself is apparently
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as a creative! What does that mean? You will utilize your talents as an artist,
photographer, graphic artist, writer, singer, actor; whatever it is you are
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sell something, a service or item that someone wanted. My humble beginnings
went from being a babysitter to camp counselor, I was ‘freelancing’ child-care.
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and University I realized that I wanted to be a singer/songwriter but until
then, I had other skills that began to appear as better alternatives to making
money so I could ditch being a waitress. While I managed my band, and wore all
of those hats, I started to work on creative projects that included: work in film, television, producing
music, publicity, organizing other people’s projects. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white; font-family: LucidaGrande; font-size: large;">My birth as a true entrepreneur happened when I couldn’t see
myself in a 9-5. It became apparent that I didn’t aspire to a job; instead, I
gravitated towards projects and opportunities that fed my soul in some way. I
just wanted to work on something that I was interested in, projects that
inspired me, people that were motivated, talented and where I could learn and
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work organically outside the creative world as a business development
consultant and manager. To my surprise, businesses liked having a creative
edge. It didn’t matter what industry, I would learn, I used my
creative-think-outside the box vision and people and companies hired me! I
never said no, and I still do not turn down interesting offers. 25 years ago I
figured out if you say yes and can learn, that enthusiasm will get you jobs you
never dreamed of. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white; font-family: LucidaGrande; font-size: large;">I have been in a musical in LA, I have worked in International
Trade, Extreme sports video distribution, written scripts for TV, done
voice-overs and jingles, managed and produced festivals and large events,
Editor of a news letter for independent films makers; the list goes on! <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: white; font-family: LucidaGrande; font-size: large;">Technically I have worked for myself (including a contract with
the National Film Board of Canada) since my late twenties. I have not held a
full time job, since my daughter was born, and yes, I still do many things.
Even if I had three hats, and it equaled a full time position somewhere, the
variety suites me. Five years ago I went back to school and became a certified
Coach, PPCC, because I realized I loved inspiring other people to live their
lives exactly the way their hearts demanded it! I had an innate knack that I practiced
with family, friends and professionally. So now there is another hat!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: white; font-family: LucidaGrande; font-size: large;">For those women who juggle home and aspirations as creative
people, you can make those decisions that will encourage you to become expert
at juggling your many demanding and rewarding roles and work for yourself on
your own terms. I raised my daughter, who is now in University on all my
different contracts and income streams. It was crazy at times, but I did it! I
am sending a big nod to all those creative souls out there who feel like they
too want to live not only an interesting, meaningful life, but one that fits
them uniquely and perfectly as expressions of who they are, at maximizing their
strengths and walking fearlessly towards their life as an entrepreneur!</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">my bed, my pillow, my reason, my insanity, my last chance.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love is my</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">beginning and is always my last word.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love embraces and sets</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">me free.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">binds me to places and people and ideas.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love is</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">simple, love is complex, is forgiving and expansive.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love is illusive,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">frugal and smaller than a mote and larger than the galaxy.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love is a language,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">is my language and my breath, and my last thought.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love is</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">my emotion and my motion, my being, my doing.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love is my</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">currency, my arms, my stomach, my smile.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love holds hands, and grieves and celebrates and gets disappointed and ignited.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">is</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">a</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">wave, a particle, a concept, an infinity,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">and like air, l</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love can sustain balloons, airplanes and seagulls.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love chooses you and ignores you.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Love misses you and prays for you and</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">sits in the corner,</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Let the quiet envelope me like velvet, like cream</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> sometimes silence is my chosen sound</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> revealing my confusion</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> the offer to share</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> my questions inquire</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> which breaks the envelope</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">and I loose part of me once again</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> A cosmic purple beckons</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> my hearts desire</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> for surrender, to be open</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">with eyes sober and ancient</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> with smile unyielding</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> how much do I really see</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> the earth calls me</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> the pull from standing to crawl</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I roll in the imaginary leaves, snow, mud</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> curl into myself like a tight fisted bud</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">then the call to rock gently</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> until I open</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I am the pebble tossing in the waves</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> I am the ameba, worm, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> soft shelled crab</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> the full impact of gravity pulls</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> I am transforming</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">this is my calling</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> it requires surrender and silence</span></div>
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Carrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-58635142849594553262012-12-01T09:03:00.001-08:002015-06-29T21:56:15.745-07:00Alchemy<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Alchemy, from long ago</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">when rivers still innocently flowed,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">when we still looked for philosopher's stone,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">and if found,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">what would be crawling under unearthed belly?</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">And those that whispered,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">or listened to the hawk's wings,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">for the right signs, for ingredients to be chosen,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">to expose and delight in the elixir of life.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">That is life's promise,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">that resembles the wind,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">that is the spark and that which gives the sparkle,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">we might turn lead into gold and defy death's rattle.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">The earth,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">where the plant kingdom lives.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">The air,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">where our dreams compete with the clouds.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">The sun shimmers and the moon glimmers,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">and the sky is a canvas for the wind.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">We did not discover fire, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">but learned to tame it, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">use it and fear it.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">And the rain,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">water is the gentlest of powerful substances, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">it carves rock and mountain tops, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">washes wounds and baths and baptizes and bubbles and froths and freezes and quenches.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Dry like the desert, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">moist like a coffee cake </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">hot like a frying pan </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">cold like a serial killer. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">If only we were magicians or there was magic, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">ah the thought of miracles: </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">that one form of matter, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">no matter what its make-up, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">could be changed into another. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">That with our might and hubris blind delight</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We could </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">alt</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">er the proportions from tall to small or </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">long to short or </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">tiny to extravagant.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">In the end you are my alchemy, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">you stop my thirst, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">from small to large, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">If love is a fabric of the universe,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">and if the universe is really infinity,</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">then our love will live forever on this plain or that other realm </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">and you are my elixir.</span></div>
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Carrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-72733044966285730502011-06-10T12:35:00.001-07:002015-06-29T21:57:17.232-07:00Spark<!--StartFragment--> <br />
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I praise the spark</div>
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I ignite the spark</div>
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I cause it</div>
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I look out the window</div>
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I carry the spark</div>
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I touch the cool wall</div>
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Its strength can scare me</div>
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so I make a tentative approach</div>
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a gentle tap</div>
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I am the spark, </div>
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Solitary I reach out</div>
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There is a space between the idea and the intention</div>
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I call across the chasm</div>
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There is silence</div>
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Why don’t they come now?</div>
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Light up my life</div>
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The energy expands my center</div>
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My seeds are dwindling, dwindling</div>
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My seed are unfertilized, sterile</div>
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Only half of what’s needed and then they wash away</div>
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First they spiral then they dance.</div>
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Drop by drop, </div>
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they lie suspended.</div>
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My middle is expanding, my digestion is failing, my sleep is waning, my complexions is greening, my memory is fleeting and my Spark is waiting for my Love</div>
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I’m here, by the way. Come.</div>
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We’ll start with a tea, a walk, </div>
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Hold my hand, my fingers like dry kindling</div>
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I am ready like a light switch, ready for the light</div>
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I am ready, like a candlewick, ready for the flame</div>
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I am ready, like shore, accepting and expecting the waves </div>
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I am ready, like a pillow, a soft place to rest your head</div>
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I am ready, like my shoes, the right fit, the chance to transit</div>
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I am ready, like a book, to be opened and read</div>
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I am ready like Thahir<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Square, for spring, for dignity, for freedom</div>
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I am ready.</div>
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The human spirit leaves as we die</div>
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But it never dies</div>
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Esoteric mystic, geometric, generic</div>
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We are all portals</div>
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Each generation relinquishes the truth!</div>
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I love you, I always will, I always do, I love you now, like I loved you before, before time. I call you, and this whisper floats above the city, above the land, free.</div>
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You can be a witness, and I can be a dancer</div>
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You can be a swimmer and I can be the current</div>
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You can be the song and I can be the strings</div>
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You can be the cave and I can carry the spark</div>
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I am brave enough now, all I need to do is agree, take the chance, </div>
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be the person I am meant to be, </div>
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like feet across a carpeted room, the potential for a spark</div>
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Like an open window in the deep dark of winter’s night</div>
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You can be the breeze gentle against my curtain</div>
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Like my patience sitting on my kitchen chair, you can be my sustenance</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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I invite you to make a choice, and choose the light, and take the flight</div>
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And call me by my many names</div>
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This one, this life is all I have right now.</div>
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You may know more and I know less than before.</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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My love for you ,calls for you, across the space</div>
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that looks like an ocean</div>
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that feels like a time zone</div>
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that requires a faith that once the spark ignites</div>
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it can be kept, cuddled, harnessed, protected, enriched, enhanced, replenished, supported, praised, fed and rested.</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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That tiny spark needs to be nurtured, because without it</div>
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The fridge light would be burnt </div>
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and the toilette wouldn’t flush </div>
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and the shower wouldn’t cleanse our bodies, our souls</div>
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Love, I wait for you</div>
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Spark</div>
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Invoke you,</div>
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You just need to decide the timing is right</div>
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Right now.</div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Barnicle: </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Common name of sedentary crustacean animals constituting the subclass <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Cirripedia</span>.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">of self sacrifice, of self <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">sabotage</span>, </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">asteroid</span> crater</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Your self respect lies</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Like road kill, on a busy highway</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">How I want to shake you</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Believe in you</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Shine you up</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">like Aladdin's Lamp</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Release the Ginny so that </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">You can manifest magic</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Your eyes so warm</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Your eyes so sad</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">You have forgotten how accept love</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Even when it stares you right in the face</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">You have neglected yourself</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">and your kids suffer</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Fear, I wish I could take a washcloth</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Warm and wet and wipe this away with gentle strokes</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">It is pity, I want sexy</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">I want to see you in your dignity</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">to own it, like a fire hydrant</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">on a sweltering day</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Quenching the parched pavement, putting out the fires</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">You want to to do good,</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">be good, be kind be a spark</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">I can't save you from this need</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">that is larger then a Christmas float in November</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;"> How can you so repel me</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">and reel me in like the moon's drag on earth's shore</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">like inhaling a cigarette</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Like a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">vacuum</span> cleaner hose</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Can it be, you are not thinking as much as</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">feeling, needing, fumbling</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Yet you call those thoughts</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">And I am affected</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">If only I say the right things</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">You will shine, you will soar</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">you will heal.</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">I am still not sure </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">what you want and don't want</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">From me, form life</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">And why I care so much</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">As if you sitting</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">on a park bench</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">Alone, in the fall</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">And everything around you</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 20px;">is grey and brown.</span></span></div>
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It left me fragile<br />
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vulnerable</div>
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there is a cost to being strong</div>
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I found it hard to reach out</div>
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ask for support</div>
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I am aware, some support</div>
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is toxic</div>
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it's hard to know what or who</div>
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won't be 'helpful'</div>
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even when they don't mean it</div>
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I fond my heart</div>
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now it feels, awakened</div>
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it's looking for a mate</div>
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but not while this was going on</div>
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not until the need was unleashed</div>
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my desirability </div>
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became a question</div>
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rebalancing that </div>
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become</div>
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my center</div>
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I hate worrying my friends and family</div>
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I preferred keeping this to myself</div>
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but the affect of that was</div>
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painful for them</div>
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What I learnt from a breast cancer scare;</div>
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I'm not willing to give up on my dreams</div>
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it brought out the warrior in me</div>
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the fighter</div>
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What I learnt from a breast cancer scare;</div>
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I am open to love now</div>
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I am a warrior for my dreams</div>
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It is the gift</div>
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I am cancer free</div>
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Dark Daffodils<br />
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are shutting the door</div>
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to say goodbye</div>
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forever more</div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span>to darkness</div>
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from far away</div>
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I hear the call</div>
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you are the one</div>
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my wonder all</div>
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consuming, distracting, </div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span>enveloping</div>
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I dust my shelves</div>
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my books I straighten</div>
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My clothes I fold</div>
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I am not mistaken</div>
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the place where I feel you</div>
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lies in the center of my being</div>
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by inspiration, I am caught cleaning</div>
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To call you forth</div>
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to conjure you to me</div>
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For ever more, as always</div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span>yours</div>
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Time dilates, I radiate</div>
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I walk about, without a doubt</div>
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I'm over here, you're under there</div>
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Love is a concept, I breath and stare</div>
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at springs renewal</div>
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the birds song</div>
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of southern cold winds</div>
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your head rings</div>
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I am waiting, still waiting</div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span>For you</div>
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I cannot say goodbye</div>
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I cannot stop this</div>
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I swim in the ocean of your essence</div>
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I am helplessly lost, imagining your lips</div>
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forever more, as always</div>
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Carrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-7641452024131725952010-05-15T17:32:00.000-07:002015-06-29T21:56:45.085-07:00You Have to Feed the Fish<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Y</span>ou <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">H</span>ave to <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">F</span>eed the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">F</span>ish</b><br />
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My heart is landing somewhere</div>
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So I float through a door</div>
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in my search</div>
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what are the whispers saying?</div>
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I am adrift on this raft, out at sea</div>
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so alone, so isolated, without comfort,</div>
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Will I find the port in the storm</div>
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match the missing mitten on a cold day</div>
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remember the galoshes or the muddy puddles</div>
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I have an intense hunger</div>
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it says,</div>
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You have to feed the fish, you have to water the plants.</div>
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The alarm goes off and one can press reset</div>
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sleep a little longer,</div>
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but in the end you get up to face the day, when</div>
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your love has flown its migratory path half way around the world it needs to rest,</div>
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it needs a soft landing.</div>
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It wants to exhale,</div>
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to build a home,</div>
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every twig of experience gathered with care</div>
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Finding the right tree,</div>
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singing a duet to greet the morning sky</div>
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nurturing enough to perch perfectly and see past the trees</div>
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I need to go into the place </div>
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Find the power</div>
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You're controlling it and I exclaim:</div>
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Are you kidding me?</div>
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I am a tropical fish</div>
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delicate but sturdy</div>
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I need constant flow, a soft current</div>
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I need warm waters and food and care</div>
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Fed by your gentle fingers, gentle, strong, consistent</div>
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How could I loose something I never really had</div>
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as I reach out,</div>
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I don't want it to slip though those fingers</div>
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meant for touching, caressing</div>
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but watch the space begin to grow, neglect </div>
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stretching the nuances, a distraction</div>
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like the drilling bit lost in the concrete</div>
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fantasy, of the You and the I finding each other</div>
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I'm lucky to feel this love, I'm lucky</div>
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really. I want you to explore the</div>
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terrain of my heart and plant your flag,</div>
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me, possess me, then tether me and</div>
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Carrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-51150781903615158232010-05-13T20:21:00.000-07:002015-06-29T21:57:34.862-07:00Beautiful<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Beautiful, delicious, joyous</div>
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my yearning swells my heart</div>
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baths me in a swath of light, flight and love</div>
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the oneness</div>
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galaxies of wonder</div>
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dimensions of bliss</div>
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energies dancing without form</div>
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the light so light, light, so light</div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>I measured up, </div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>I stepped up, </div>
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in this magnificent fountain</div>
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in the warmth of the sun radiating</div>
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in the pleasure of loving freely</div>
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send it out, pass it around, don't keep it for yourself</div>
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bath in it</div>
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ride the waves</div>
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trust like the wind</div>
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have faith like the rain</div>
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endure like the horizon</div>
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primed for it</div>
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an opus to the divine</div>
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the eternal swelling of the infinite</div>
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galactic, noble, gracious</div>
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beautiful</div>
Carrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-67245063349745313002010-05-01T22:03:00.000-07:002015-06-29T21:57:04.693-07:00Daffodils, Fiddleheads, Dandelions<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande';">Daffodils, Fiddleheads, Dandelions</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande', serif;">I dream of a spectacular love, I dream of another life, I dream of transformations and hugging, sensual bliss and being at peace. Searching the forest floor for mushrooms and fiddleheads, wild garlic and fantom fairies, I begin to repeat myself, leaving echos, leaving footprints, leaving words, dropping stitches. So I wake up, this dream inside the dream. This river inside this spiral arm of the cosmic wind, gently pushes each galaxy to collide, to slide, to beckon, to borrow. The spotty night sky, inside the looming spiders in the corner sway to the saved messages on your answering machine. Spring brings rainbows to bless the union and quench the thirst of the rich soil, spring celebrates with Daffodils and lilies and young nettle to feast and sting. Spring also invites fiddleheads and dandelions, coaxing their transformation, encouraging the energy to Blossom, Bloom, Banter. I did not hold your hand, but you did hold out yours to me in the most chaste and gentlemanly fashion, endearing myself, imprinting the impression of warmer weather and summers approach. I beckon my open heart, but I'm careful with my Body language. I nestle into the corner of your heart, but I am only visiting, the cold earth has yet to be planted. It's too much, to young, too far, too complicated, to be real. </span></div>
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Carrie Katzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04914907607128475287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-759108099510078304.post-47461709142109941212010-04-30T05:58:00.000-07:002010-04-30T06:02:26.814-07:00Travel<span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family:Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif;font-size:13px;"><div><b style="font-weight: bold; "><i style="font-style: italic; "><span class="ecxApple-style-span" style="line-height: normal; color:#76923C;"><span class="ecxApple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:16pt;"><span class="ecxApple-style-span" style="line-height: normal; font-family:'Comic Sans MS';">Inter Dimensional Travel Agency</span></span></span></i></b></div><div><span class="ecxApple-style-span" style="line-height: normal; font-family:Verdana, Times, serif;"><b style="font-weight: bold; "><i style="font-style: italic; "><br /></i></b></span></div><div><span class="ecxApple-style-span" style="line-height: normal; font-family:Verdana, Times, serif;"><b style="font-weight: bold; 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